I apologize if I'm starting to sound like a drama queen - I'm usually pretty low maintenance. I live in a house of men - nobody would even notice if I acted dramatic, so why waste the energy :).
I was having a hard time deciding what to write about today. I have a whole notebook of ideas I want to share, but nothing was jumping out at me. My mom has been visiting this week, so I haven't had the time to devote to my blog.
Then I read the comments that were left on my post The Hardest Stage . The compassion, kindness and support shown to me by my new blogging friends brought me to tears. I am truly touched.
For the past year or so, I've been in a bit of a funk. Not really a full on depression - sort of an "I feel sorry for myself" moment I guess? Bear with me while I explain, and then I promise to quickly get to the point.
Growing up, I was extremely driven - an "A" type personality. Good grades all the way through college, involved in everything, always sure of where I was going in the world. When I graduated, I jumped into my chosen profession and took off running.
And then I had a baby.
From the first moment I held him, everything else went out the window. All I wanted was to stay home and be a mom. I was extremely fortunate that my husband and I could make that happen, and I haven't regretted the decision for a minute. Hubby tells a different tale - he often laments about the vacation home or country club membership he could have had if I'd stayed in the corporate world. But those are his issues to deal with - not mine :).
However - those babies grow up and don't need you the same way anymore. I was floundering, and for the first time, I had no idea where my future was heading, or what to DO with myself.
Which brings me to the point.
I have been blogging for about six weeks now. I'm just a teeny tiny ripple in the vast blog world, where some of you have been sharing your creative spirit for many years now. But I swear the last six weeks have renewed me.
I know I'm not inventing the wheel. There are thousands of other blogs doing what I do much better that I can ever hope - there is much work to be done. But I love to write, and so far I'm happy with my little space, where I can share what I'm thinking, loving and doing. I jump out of bed in the morning, excited to check on my blog and connect with others who share my passion.
The best part has been what I've gotten back from all of you. I had no idea there was this amazing community of bloggers out there, willing to take time from their busy day to read what I've written and share such kind and thoughtful comments with me, a total stranger. I've already made some wonderful new friends.
And it's only been six weeks. I can't wait to see what the future holds.