Today I'm linking up with Elaine at Miss Elaine-ous Life for some Old School Blogging. The theme this month is I Am. I thought this was going to be really hard, but apparently I needed to vent a little.
I am....tired. So, so tired. I spent fourteen hours on Saturday setting up and working our high school Booster Club golf tournament. We started at 8am under drizzly, chilly conditions, but by noon things cleared up. I got in my car to go home at 10pm, and it was the first time I sat down all day. Since then, I've realized that I'm getting too old to spend that many hours on my feet.
I hear...children playing outside. No one new has moved into my neighborhood for years, and all of the kids are teenagers or older. Must be friends visiting someone. It's a lovely sound, and I wish I had their energy.
I see...sunshine. The next week is supposed to be sunny and warm. Finally.
I want...a BBQ hamburger for dinner. My friend Deena shared some delicious recipes on her blog today (BBQ pizza!) and now I'm craving BBQ.
I am...too tired to make said burger, so I'll probably have a sandwich instead.
I pretend...sometimes that my parents still live nearby, instead of in Arizona. My mom is visiting for two weeks and I love having her here.
I feel...angry and sad that they moved away.
I touch...upon these feelings when she's visiting. The rest of the time I try to get over it.
I worry...about them being so far from us if they have an emergency. There are no family or friends nearby to help.
I cry...when she leaves. It will probably be months before I see her again.
I am...a daughter, forever.
I understand...that kids grow up and life goes on.
I say...all the things I'm supposed to. I'm excited for my boys, and so proud of them. But I can't help wishing I could turn back the clock a little bit.
I dream...of what their future holds. Where will they be in ten years? Will they fall in love? Find fulfilling careers?
I try...to picture what my life will look like once I'm not being a parent twenty four hours a day. I can't picture it yet.
I hope...above all else, that they are happy. That's what I want the most.
I am...a mother, forever. And did I mention that I'm tired?